Lonely Souls

I only feel suicidal in the morning.

But it’s every morning.

Because every morning I wake up and I know it’s not going to get any better.

I know that the love I lost is gone forever.

I know that nobody’s life is better because I am alive.

And I know that when I disappear nobody will come looking for me.

And I should make the big decision and close my eyes and go home.

But I am a ghost that can’t let go.

Because even though I am a failure

And everything that touches me hurts

I have a dream

That today will be different

That I will go outside and feel a spark of connection

That I will find another lonely soul